Why I Don't Care About Five Pounds

Somewhere between Christmas and, oh say, yesterday, I realized that I’ve gained five pounds. I think most people gain weight around the holidays, but I wasn’t expecting to be hanging onto this on Valentine’s Day Eve. Maybe it came from Christmas cookies or stress or the fact that I have acid reflux that always makes me feel hungry. Let’s be honest, it probably also comes from the fact that I cannot STAND working out when it’s cold and snowing out, and then dark at 4:30pm. Whatever the cause, it happened. For a while I was freaking out. I was cranky and felt horrible about myself.

Then I went to the doctor and he weighed me. I was dreading this moment.

“I gained five pounds, you know.” I said.

“That’s okay, that’s normal. You’re still well within the healthy range for your height.”

“I know, but I don’t normally hang on to weight like this.”

“A lot of people gain weight in the winter, it’s pretty normal. We’ll keep an eye on it, but I’m not concerned.”

And that was that.

Then I was talking to my boyfriend. I could dye my hair purple and he probably wouldn’t notice, but I wanted to see if he had picked up on my situation.

“I gained five pounds, and I feel really bad about myself and I need to lose it immediately.”

He responded that he didn’t notice/I still look beautiful/I’ll get back on track quickly/other standard sweet boyfriend replies. I was somewhat satisfied.

Then I saw the Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Edition cover with Kate Upton on it. She’s considered one of the most beautiful women in the world and she’s no stick. Girlfriend has hips, boobs, and isn’t completely ripped with muscle.

“Hmm,” I thought to myself. “Maybe I’m obsessing.”

So I told myself for one day that I was going to stop freaking out about my weight gain. I’d continue to eat healthy and work out as often as possible, but I wasn’t going to beat myself up and feel bad. It was a huge improvement. Look, this is no feminist rant about how all bodies are beautiful. This is just me saying that weight gain happens, especially in the winter. And if you think you look awful with an extra five pounds, chances are that most people don’t even notice. Obviously you want to eat right, exercise, and avoid gaining more weight because that can cause problems, but there’s no need to lose sleep and self-confidence over normal weight fluctuation.

It’s so easy to wonder why you don’t have abs like Alessandra Ambrosio, and then to spend all afternoon on Pinterest looking up workouts. It’s great to want to get healthy, but remember that these women have the best trainers and nutritionists in the world. It’s more realistic to do what you can with what you have, instead of holding yourself up to their professional model, airbrushed body standards.

Do you ever beat yourself up about your weight? How do you stay self confident?

Also! Check out my latest for The College Crush called “The One Relationship Rule You Must Follow.”  Also check out my latest for Romance Never Dies called “Valentine’s Day: Don’t Believe the Hype.”

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